It's been a while since I "blogged" anything, but there's been a lot happening! So let's start with...
May 2009, the month before we got married, we decided that we wanted to start trying for a family. Since I'd been on birth control (BC) for so many years before, we were told by my doctor that it'd take a while for the chemicals to be completely out of my system, so to go ahead and quit with the BC whenever we wanted. So, we decided, May was "the month." Fast forward 4 weeks, past the wedding and our honeymoon, and BAM, positive pregnancy test. It happened the first month! We were going to be parents! Happiness, fear, excitement, and terror set in. At 7 weeks, we saw our baby on the ultrasound screen bouncing around with a healthy heartbeat, reality set in and we became super excited! At 12 weeks, our baby left this world too early. His/her heart stopped beating and we lost it. We were told it was an incompetent cervix, and "sometimes these things happen." So we dealt with grief and the fact of not being parents soon, and moved on to try again.
Fast forward again to present day (almost 5 years later), as I sit at home recovering from surgery, I'm thinking about the past years. Since that sunny day in October 2009, we've lost 3 other precious babies. We've dealt with infertility and loss, happiness and excitement. Right now, our home is filled with love and excitement, as we are starting with a clean slate. I was diagnosed with Endometriosis 3 years ago, but we were told it wasn't that severe. Last Thursday, we went to our new doctor for another laparoscopy (surgical procedure to remove the endo), he removed more tissue then he thought he was going to need to. But, good news was ahead of us. With the removal of the endo, we should have a clean shot and best chance of conceiving our "Rainbow Babe."
Of course, with the excitement, comes the fear of the "what ifs," but Brian and I have chosen to be positive thinkers!! We are going to make this happen, and it will work!!!
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