Two weeks ago yesterday, I underwent another Laparoscopy to remove my endometriosis. The procedure went surprisingly well, the Hospital and staff were amazing, and recovery was as good as could be expected. I was super sore and ended up with a bruise that hurt more then the actual incision areas. Brian was wonderful! He took such good care of me and made sure that I was comfortable and didn't need anything. If I needed anything, he was quick to jump to it. Made me dinner every night and held my hand if we were out and about. I was super lucky with the whole experience.
However, in comparison with my previous "Lap" in 2011, my pain was a lot worse with this one. I ended up having to take the meds they prescribed me, which I really didn't want to do. But there came a point that the pain was so bad that it was all I could do to even sit or lay down, getting up to use the restroom was an entirely different story! So I broke down and took the meds. Sweet sleep came shortly after that.
Wednesday I had my follow up appointment. The first thing the Doc told me was I was a champ. He told me that he had no idea how I had been able to function before the procedure. Apparently the severity of my endometriosis was shocking to everyone. But now we have a game plan. For the first time in 5 years, we have a PLAN! Even saying it gives me chills. We've had pretty good experiences with Doctors, minus my first doctor who was horrible. I wasn't too excited about leaving my last doctor, but after seeing Dr. M. we're convinced that we made the right choice! For once, I feel like I can be positive about our situation. I feel like I am in control and that for me is a hard change to grasp. For once, I get to be the one saying what I do and do not want out of our experience. I get to be the one calling the shots. Most importantly, the whole picture is in our sites. Not just the process of getting pregnant, but the following 9 months.
As always, we remain hopeful.
Friday, May 9, 2014
Monday, April 28, 2014
Chasing a dream, or running from reality
It's been a while since I "blogged" anything, but there's been a lot happening! So let's start with...
May 2009, the month before we got married, we decided that we wanted to start trying for a family. Since I'd been on birth control (BC) for so many years before, we were told by my doctor that it'd take a while for the chemicals to be completely out of my system, so to go ahead and quit with the BC whenever we wanted. So, we decided, May was "the month." Fast forward 4 weeks, past the wedding and our honeymoon, and BAM, positive pregnancy test. It happened the first month! We were going to be parents! Happiness, fear, excitement, and terror set in. At 7 weeks, we saw our baby on the ultrasound screen bouncing around with a healthy heartbeat, reality set in and we became super excited! At 12 weeks, our baby left this world too early. His/her heart stopped beating and we lost it. We were told it was an incompetent cervix, and "sometimes these things happen." So we dealt with grief and the fact of not being parents soon, and moved on to try again.
Fast forward again to present day (almost 5 years later), as I sit at home recovering from surgery, I'm thinking about the past years. Since that sunny day in October 2009, we've lost 3 other precious babies. We've dealt with infertility and loss, happiness and excitement. Right now, our home is filled with love and excitement, as we are starting with a clean slate. I was diagnosed with Endometriosis 3 years ago, but we were told it wasn't that severe. Last Thursday, we went to our new doctor for another laparoscopy (surgical procedure to remove the endo), he removed more tissue then he thought he was going to need to. But, good news was ahead of us. With the removal of the endo, we should have a clean shot and best chance of conceiving our "Rainbow Babe."
Of course, with the excitement, comes the fear of the "what ifs," but Brian and I have chosen to be positive thinkers!! We are going to make this happen, and it will work!!!
May 2009, the month before we got married, we decided that we wanted to start trying for a family. Since I'd been on birth control (BC) for so many years before, we were told by my doctor that it'd take a while for the chemicals to be completely out of my system, so to go ahead and quit with the BC whenever we wanted. So, we decided, May was "the month." Fast forward 4 weeks, past the wedding and our honeymoon, and BAM, positive pregnancy test. It happened the first month! We were going to be parents! Happiness, fear, excitement, and terror set in. At 7 weeks, we saw our baby on the ultrasound screen bouncing around with a healthy heartbeat, reality set in and we became super excited! At 12 weeks, our baby left this world too early. His/her heart stopped beating and we lost it. We were told it was an incompetent cervix, and "sometimes these things happen." So we dealt with grief and the fact of not being parents soon, and moved on to try again.
Fast forward again to present day (almost 5 years later), as I sit at home recovering from surgery, I'm thinking about the past years. Since that sunny day in October 2009, we've lost 3 other precious babies. We've dealt with infertility and loss, happiness and excitement. Right now, our home is filled with love and excitement, as we are starting with a clean slate. I was diagnosed with Endometriosis 3 years ago, but we were told it wasn't that severe. Last Thursday, we went to our new doctor for another laparoscopy (surgical procedure to remove the endo), he removed more tissue then he thought he was going to need to. But, good news was ahead of us. With the removal of the endo, we should have a clean shot and best chance of conceiving our "Rainbow Babe."
Of course, with the excitement, comes the fear of the "what ifs," but Brian and I have chosen to be positive thinkers!! We are going to make this happen, and it will work!!!
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